Chapter 12
Tools
We come with a set of tools to help us in our journey of emotional healing. These tools are there for the taking and cost nothing. If there is a price to be paid for them, it will come in the form of belief, trust, faith, and good old-fashioned hard work.
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God
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God created life; so, with life comes God. That is a given, whether you believe it or not. As a "do-it-yourselfer", God became my sole soul supporter. I was shown, very simply, that even though life brings pain and suffering, God has His tools are there for us to heal our pain. He won't do it for us because it is our work to do for ourselves.
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Developing my relationship with God has been invaluable in my healing as it has allowed me to make the most of all that He has to offer. I have grown in this journey and so has my relationship with Him. Knowing God means knowing myself.
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In order to have God work in my life, I've had to allow Him to work in my life. When He speaks, I listen. When you ask for His help, be prepared to follow through on his advice. Obedience has been the best way for me to learn to trust in God:
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I was 33. I had a series of dreams spanning two nights. The first night I dreamt of many women and their breasts. There was a glowing light present in the dream. When I awoke I was unable to decipher the dream. But I was aware enough to realize the focus and message of this dream was "breasts".
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As I awoke the following morning, I saw the word "mammogram" written across the vastness of my mind. I had been studying my dreams for several years by this time and I knew that I was being guided to get a mammogram. I didn't think anything of it because I, unfortunately, was deep in the throes of depression and was trying to understand what just happened to me (after I was plucked from my life as I knew it and dumped into my pain and suffering). I was not frightened. I was not feeling anything. I knew we had a family history of breast cancer so I thought it best to listen to my dream and follow through with a mammogram. I chose to bypass the primary care physician step because I didn't know how I was going to explain my dream, and the standard of care was such that it was possible I would be denied my request for a mammogram based on a dream, my young age, and the fact that there was no lump or other physical symptom.
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I scheduled an appointment directly with a mammography office. I didn't bother to return their phone calls when they tried to reach me with the results because I didn't think there was anything to the dream. I continued to ignore their calls for days until they finally tracked me down. At that time I was informed I indeed had breast cancer. Not until I sat behind the nurse's desk scheduling the series of radiation treatments did I realize that I was a cancer patient, and the tears began to well in my eyes and stream down my cheeks.
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When I arrived home I was livid - at God. I told Him that if He could give it (cancer) to me He could take it away, and that is exactly what He will have to do because "I was not going to undergo radiation treatments!" He responded immediately with, "No. You must undergo radiation." I'm not a particular stubborn individual so I conceded with one condition: "Just as long as I don't over treat. After all, how do the doctors know how much radiation to give me? Every body is different and all cancers are different. I don't want to over treat!" I was so angry. God's response: "So be it."
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I went forth with the radiation treatments. I was two weeks away from its completion when I had a in which I was told, "You're done." I was skeptical of this dream and proceeded to receive my treatment that day. That night in my dreams I was told by an angry Father God, "I said you were done!" "Oh, boy, I did it now," I thought to myself. I didn't trust the dream. I could kick myself for that. So, how was I going to tell the doctor that I'm done? How do you tell a doctor that God told me, in a dream, that I was done with radiation regardless of their protocol and standard of care? This was proving to be difficult for me as I allowed fear to wash over me.
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I went to the doctor that day with the intention of telling him I was done. But I couldn't find a way. I completed my treatment that day and as I was dressing to leave for home I was suddenly overcome with a most intense pain in my lung that left me doubled over in pain, unable to take a breath, and crying. A chest x-ray showed my lungs to be healthy and pink (good to know). I knew the pain was my body's way of reminding me that I was done and to tell the doctor (remember, there is no pain without conflict. I was in conflict, thus the pain). I can still see the look of fear on the doctor's face. It was more difficult getting out of my own way and trusting God than it was to tell the doctor I would not be returning.
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Of course, by the time I arrived home that day the pain in my lung was completely gone, and it (and the cancer) has never returned.
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When we ask God to work in our lives, our faith in Him rests on trusting ourselves. When we allow negativity, such as doubt or fear, to enter into the equation, we create our pain. Therefore, it is not God who is hurting us, it is ourselves via the choices we make (in favor of the Dark One). We get in the way of ourselves in our pursuit for happiness simply by not putting trust in ourselves. Trusting ourselves allows us to experience faith in God. It's all good...it's all positive.
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Moral to the story: Put your faith in God and trust in yourself.
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There is no pain without conflict.
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Trust + Positivity = Faith
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Trusting God is trusting yourself.
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The Universe
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The Universe itself has tools for our use. Synchronicity and Nature give us the "signs" we need for reassurance, guidance and direction. When we've raised our level of awareness, we are better able to recognize when the Universe speaks to us through these avenues.
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Spirit Helpers: Jesus, Buddha, Spirit Guides, Angels, Deceased Loved Ones, etc.
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Spirit Helpers are those entities on the Other Side who help us in our journey of life, and we have many available to us at all times. I include Jesus and Buddha here because, together with God, their teachings play a tremendous role in my healing.
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I would like to make special mention here of my "Dream Team" who were responsible for attuning me to my dreams. I didn't know they existed until one night, after their gig was up and it was time for us to part ways, they sent me a letter in a dream. The one-page letter was written in purple ink. I do not recall the gist of the letter, but I do remember the last line: "We will miss you." And it was signed, "The Dream Team".
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We are not necessarily assigned one particular Spirit Guide during the course of a lifetime as they can change, for whatever reason.
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Our Spirit Helpers are here to help each and every one of us, but I think fear prevents some folks from benefiting from their assistance. The most important thing to know about Spirit Helpers is that it is their job to help us. When we don't use them, they are not able to work for us. Did you know that the unemployment rate on the Other Side is far greater than it is here on Earth? Help stamp out unemployment on the Other Side. Use your Spirit Helpers.
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The Grid
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Just as our bodies have a web of fascia circulating throughout it, so does life and everything in it. This fascia of life is called "the Grid". The Grid is a tool used for creation and is the very tool used by God (although He uses it much more efficiently than we do). Without it, everything ceases to exist.
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The Grid is how the energies of our thoughts and emotions create the world around us. Think of the Grid as a highway. When traffic (our energy) is flowing harmoniously as a whole, no problems are created to disrupt this flow. However, when a disruption does occur, the flow of traffic is temporarily put on hold. The flow of our thoughts and emotions, when negative in nature, will too cause a disruption in our lives as we fail in our attempts to attract, create and manifest that which we desire. While a traffic jam on the highway can last from minutes to hours, our personal energy jam can also last for days, months, years and lifetimes. The duration of time is completely up to as as individuals.
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